In the Master Key course, we are reading the Scrolls from The Greatest Salesman, according to the instructions given by the author, Og Mandino. We read the same Scroll three times a day for thirty days before moving on to the next one. This month we are reading Scroll IV.
“I am nature’s greatest miracle.”
“I am not on this earth by chance. I am here for a purpose and that purpose is to grow into a mountain, not to shrink to a grain of sand. Henceforth will I apply all my efforts to become the highest mountain of all and I will strain my potential until it cries for mercy.”
I have a confession to make. I have ADHD. I have never been diagnosed, but I didn’t have to be. An energy therapist suggested to me ten years ago that I have it, and he recommended a couple of books for me to read… Scattered Minds, by Dr. Gabor Mate, and Delivered From Distraction, by Dr. Ed Hallowell. I started reading the first book — and saw myself written all over the pages. I showed it to my husband, and he said he felt like he had been given the key to understanding me, for the first time in the twenty-three years he had known me.
For me, it was a mixed blessing. It was a huge relief to know why I think and act the way I do, and to know there is nothing wrong with me… my mind is just wired differently. It also meant I could no longer make excuses or hide behind what I thought was true. I am an introvert, and all that hyperactivity is hidden inside me, taking the form of hyperfocusing. If my kids told me I had said something, or they had told me something, I could no longer deny it — because they are far more likely to be right than I am. I’m so thankful I have great kids who have never taken advantage of their spaced out mom.
It really bothers me when mentors and friends try to deny that someone has ADHD. A doctor friend doesn’t believe adults have ADHD. I have a friend whose standard response to anyone who claims to have ADHD, “You don’t have ADHD, you’re a blue personality. ADHD doesn’t exist.” I am the total opposite of a blue, and he has no answer for me except that I have too much chatter going on my head. But he never stops to consider WHY I have all that chatter in my head, or why I haven’t been able to silence it. I can slow it down, and gain some clarity, but not to the extent I long for.
I was over 50 when I discovered I have ADHD, and it explains a LOT. In retrospect I can see that ALL my life I’ve been doing my best to shrink to a grain of sand.
On the surface this means:
— staying in the background even more than my shy, introverted nature dictates
— finding the “safe path” socially, and staying on it at all costs
— “self-medicating” via comfort foods or staying up all hours of the night
— going to great measures to look and act “normal” when I have no idea how
There’s so much more I could say, but — enough on that. Suffice to say, I’ve spent a lifetime trying to be someone I am not, and it amounts to a lot of wasted energy.
For many years I had trouble staying awake during the sermon at church. This was no reflection on the pastor, for he could it could be the most interesting and applicable sermon I’d ever heard, and it was impossible for me to stay awake.
The same thing happens when I’m reading a book, reading aloud to my son, or even sitting down to watch a movie. I have to be doing something with my hands, such as crocheting.
I tried taking notes in church, but it didn’t help. The lines of writing would slide downhill and turn into scrambled doodles a the end of every line.
A friend told me to take notes in mind mapping format. Apparently, including sketches and arrows etc. integrates the different parts of the brain. It sounded weird to me, but it worked! That was YEARS ago, and I’ve never had trouble staying awake since.
In the Master Key course, we learn how to make all kinds of associations and connections, and keep them in the forefront of our thinking. We also employ methods for using all of our senses and all seven ways that people learn. AND it builds a bridge between the left and right halves of the brain. This is huge, because it covers all bases and no one is left out.
“I have been given eyes to see and a mind to think and now I know a great secret of life for I perceive, at last, that all my problems, discouragements, and heartaches are, in truth, great opportunities in disguise. I will no longer be fooled by the garments they wear for mine eyes are open. I will look beyond the cloth and I will not be deceived.”
When well-meaning people deny the existence of ADHD, it can do more harm than good — like telling a crippled child there is no reason why he can’t run a race with “normal” kids — and win. By contrast, Scroll IV reminds me that everyone has problems, discouragements and heartaches — and ADHD is no exception. In like manner, my pastor tells me God created me exactly the way I am because He has a purpose for me that is unlike any He has given to anyone else.
I AM here for a purpose — HIS purpose for me — and I have everything I need to fulfill that purpose and be excellent at it. I don’t want to be a grain of sand any more.
TODAY I begin a NEW LIFE. I greet this day, and everything and everyone in it, with LOVE in my heart. I know exactly what to do, and I DO IT NOW, with joy and gratitude. I apply all my efforts to become the highest mountain of all! I PERSIST, and I SUCCEED!