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Week 14 – The Highest Mountain of All

In the Master Key course, we are reading the Scrolls from The Greatest Salesman, according to the instructions given by the author, Og Mandino. We read the same Scroll three times a day for thirty days before moving on to the next one. This month we are reading Scroll IV.

“I am nature’s greatest miracle.”

“I am not on this earth by chance. I am here for a purpose and that purpose is to grow into a mountain, not to shrink to a grain of sand. Henceforth will I apply all my efforts to become the highest mountain of all and I will strain my potential until it cries for mercy.”

I have a confession to make. I have ADHD. I have never been diagnosed, but I didn’t have to be. An energy therapist suggested to me ten years ago that I have it, and he recommended a couple of books for me to read… Scattered Minds, by Dr. Gabor Mate, and Delivered From Distraction, by Dr. Ed Hallowell. I started reading the first book — and saw myself written all over the pages. I showed it to my husband, and he said he felt like he had been given the key to understanding me, for the first time in the twenty-three years he had known me.

For me, it was a mixed blessing. It was a huge relief to know why I think and act the way I do, and to know there is nothing wrong with me… my mind is just wired differently. It also meant I could no longer make excuses or hide behind what I thought was true. I am an introvert, and all that hyperactivity is hidden inside me, taking the form of hyperfocusing. If my kids told me I had said something, or they had told me something, I could no longer deny it — because they are far more likely to be right than I am. I’m so thankful I have great kids who have never taken advantage of their spaced out mom.

It really bothers me when mentors and friends try to deny that someone has ADHD. A doctor friend doesn’t believe adults have ADHD. I have a friend whose standard response to anyone who claims to have ADHD, “You don’t have ADHD, you’re a blue personality. ADHD doesn’t exist.” I am the total opposite of a blue, and he has no answer for me except that I have too much chatter going on my head. But he never stops to consider WHY I have all that chatter in my head, or why I haven’t been able to silence it. I can slow it down, and gain some clarity, but not to the extent I long for.

I was over 50 when I discovered I have ADHD, and it explains a LOT. In retrospect I can see that ALL my life I’ve been doing my best to shrink to a grain of sand.

On the surface this means:
— staying in the background even more than my shy, introverted nature dictates
— finding the “safe path” socially, and staying on it at all costs
— “self-medicating” via comfort foods or staying up all hours of the night
— going to great measures to look and act “normal” when I have no idea how

There’s so much more I could say, but — enough on that. Suffice to say, I’ve spent a lifetime trying to be someone I am not, and it amounts to a lot of wasted energy.

For many years I had trouble staying awake during the sermon at church. This was no reflection on the pastor, for he could it could be the most interesting and applicable sermon I’d ever heard, and it was impossible for me to stay awake.

The same thing happens when I’m reading a book, reading aloud to my son, or even sitting down to watch a movie. I have to be doing something with my hands, such as crocheting.

I tried taking notes in church, but it didn’t help. The lines of writing would slide downhill and turn into scrambled doodles a the end of every line.

A friend told me to take notes in mind mapping format. Apparently, including sketches and arrows etc. integrates the different parts of the brain. It sounded weird to me, but it worked! That was YEARS ago, and I’ve never had trouble staying awake since.

In the Master Key course, we learn how to make all kinds of associations and connections, and keep them in the forefront of our thinking. We also employ methods for using all of our senses and all seven ways that people learn. AND it builds a bridge between the left and right halves of the brain. This is huge, because it covers all bases and no one is left out.

“I have been given eyes to see and a mind to think and now I know a great secret of life for I perceive, at last, that all my problems, discouragements, and heartaches are, in truth, great opportunities in disguise. I will no longer be fooled by the garments they wear for mine eyes are open. I will look beyond the cloth and I will not be deceived.”

When well-meaning people deny the existence of ADHD, it can do more harm than good — like telling a crippled child there is no reason why he can’t run a race with “normal” kids — and win. By contrast, Scroll IV reminds me that everyone has problems, discouragements and heartaches — and ADHD is no exception. In like manner, my pastor tells me God created me exactly the way I am because He has a purpose for me that is unlike any He has given to anyone else.

I AM here for a purpose — HIS purpose for me — and I have everything I need to fulfill that purpose and be excellent at it. I don’t want to be a grain of sand any more.

TODAY I begin a NEW LIFE. I greet this day, and everything and everyone in it, with LOVE in my heart. I know exactly what to do, and I DO IT NOW, with joy and gratitude. I apply all my efforts to become the highest mountain of all! I PERSIST, and I SUCCEED!

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13 thoughts on “Week 14 – The Highest Mountain of All

  1. Such a great post! My son was finally officially diagnosed with ADD (that’s ADHD without the Hyperactivity portion of the disorder) while he was in Junior High School. The specialist said “classic, text-book ADD”. Then I had to do a LOT of research to see what any of that meant. After some research, my children both agreed that I probably also had it, but I would be classified as “functional” ADD. Fine, I can accept that. I bought and loaned a copy of ‘Delivered From Distraction,’ by Dr. Ed Hallowell to my family physician who was specializing in ADD/ADHD in his practice. Sometimes I think it’s the overwhelming, overstimulated, highly distracted society we have come to live in, more than my Attention Deficit Disorder, but I have learned to Persist and I will Succeed! Thanks so much for your encouraging post. We are NOT alone!

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  2. I enjoyed your post Willena. Thanks for sharing your personal story. My only thought is to not let what a doctor says define or limit you … whether it’s an ADHD diagnosis or anything else. People are often misdiagnosed. My friends wanted to put their child on drugs for ADD, under a doctors recommendation. I told them they are nuts. He was a normal high school kid and changing schools weighed on him a bit. Drugs will only make matters worse. Mild stress and depression can also cause someone to lose focus.

    My friends listened to me and didn’t take the doctors advice to put their child on hard drugs … today their child is a very successful engineer. The human mind is fascinating and people develop at different paces. I’m glad this book as helped you to find answers, but don’t let it define you. When you live with passion and purpose nothing can stop you.

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  3. Absolutely! It makes me so excited to read this, Willena. I believe very strongly (and teach it) that we’re all unique, that we all have a purpose and that we do best when we’re expressing our unique selves and our purpose. I love that you’re not going to shrink who you are into a small grain of sand anymore :).

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  4. Hi Willena, This had to be kind of a hard post to write but to see your determination get stronger as you wrote was awesome. We all have a purpose in life, just some of us are given a different way to present it. It sure helps though to know your unique way to live life and help others.

    Have a great new year.

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  5. At the end of the day, whether you technically have ADHD or whether ADHD exists is irrelevant. If the description of ADHD and coping mechanisms associated with it form a useful construct for you and help you cope with your own weaknesses, then you don’t need a diagnosis. You’ve found a way to improve your life with applicable knowledge. And knowledge successfully applied is truth no matter what name you give it.

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  6. Hi Willena,

    You’re absolutely right! We all have a purpose in this life. No matter what illnesses or conditions we may have, God has a plan for us. Thanks for sharing an intimate finding about yourself. That was very brave.

    Take care,

    Lillian

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  7. Willena, Wow I’m so glad you shared your personal story and have found a way to no longer be a grain of sand! Every day gives all of us a new opportunity to achieve greatness no matter what obstacles we are facing. I am confident that you can accomplish whatever you want in life and this master key course and book you are reading is the stepping stone to helping you on your new path.

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  8. Love the article, my son has PTSD, RAD and a few others with a hint of ADHD but has not be diagnosed. It is so great to see you share the story.

    Happy New Year

    Andy

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  9. I have diagnosed GAD, Bi-Polar, and PTSD … however I have undiagnosed SPD because I chose not to have another label put upon me. I know that I have it. Just like I knew I had IBS before I had the diagnosis. Knowing yourself is more important than having a diagnosis. I hope you have a great year, especially since you know how to create a path that works for you!

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  10. In the end, diagnoses are a good way to come to understand ourselves in such a way that doesn’t feel pathologizing (although sometimes it can do quite the opposite). I am glad that this has allowed you to get to know yourself better and to find a way to make sense of why your mind is the way it is.

    p.s. love the scroll!! Such a marvelous reminder of our greatness!

    p.s. 2. not that I fell asleep at church, but I can totally relate… I don’t understand how anyone can sit through a sermon… I am a visual person, so monotone sounds, or listening to sermons does NOT get my attention… so often times you would find me inside my head instead of paying attention :p

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  11. A powerful post. Thank you for being so open and willing to share. I might suggest a book for you that you might enjoy, The Unteathered Soul, a book that talks about calming our inner voices. You are on the right journey.

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