My husband came home from the grocery store today with a translucent container of alphabet pasta. It brought an immediate smile to my face, because it took me back to one special evening during my first year in Pioneer Girls at my church. We made a little wall plaque out of popsicle sticks, and glued bits of alphabet macaroni onto it to form a favourite Bible verse. I chose the first half of John 14:6 — Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth and the life: no man cometh unto the Father but by me.
We received an invitation in the mail last week, to attend the Christmas banquet at Mount Carmel Bible College, where our son Timothy is a student this year. The banquet was to be held on Thursday, December 11 at 6:00 PM.
“December 11,” I said to my husband. Serious mixed feelings here.
Friday, December 11, 2009 was the evening of another special occasion. We thought we were celebrating the marriage of our daughter, but God had another celebration in mind. We didn’t know it would be the last time our family would be together… Dad, Mom, and seven children. We didn’t know that the following evening, December 12, we would lose our eldest son.
As I watched Timothy singing on stage tonight with his classmates, I was struck for the thousandth time by how much he looks like his big brother. That thought was immediately followed by another. Timothy is not James. He is a young man in his own right, with his own unique talents and gifts to offer, and a whole future ahead of him.
It’s good to make connections, and it’s good to remember, but not if it takes away from the present or the immense possibilities for the future.
From this week’s reading in The Master Key, Charles Haanel writes:
We frequently hear it said, “A very distressing situation came into my life, which could not have been the result of my thought, as I certainly never entertained any thought which could have such a result.” We fail to remember that like attracts like in the mental world, and that the thought which we entertain brings to us certain friendships, companionships of a particular kind, and these in turn bring about conditions and environment, which in turn are responsible for the conditions of which we complain.
Given the recent loss of my mom, and what this week represents to me, perhaps it’s understandable that I had a hard time with that passage. For days I could not get past it. I reacted to it. Because that was my precise reaction when our son died. It was a very distressing situation, and it could not have been the result of my thought, because even if I had entertained such thoughts (which I hadn’t), there is no way my son would have suffered as a result of my thoughts.
And then I watched the replay of our webinar from last Sunday, and was reminded of something Haanel said in our reading a couple of weeks ago.
If you wish to change conditions you must change yourself.
What are my conditions? Are they only the things that happen to me? Certainly I bring about a whole lot of what happens in my life. But I think what Haanel is saying goes further than that. My conditions are not what happens to me. My conditions are what I make of what happens to me. I can be in the worst place on earth, or the worst place in my life, but the sun can shine in my heart and I can see the humour and beauty in life. And in that scenario, my conditions look much brighter and I can smile and find joy in it.
No matter what situation I find myself in, I can — I must — I will — say and believe these empowering words…
“I am whole, perfect, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious and happy.”
This week in our Master Key Course is all about connections — of the good and positive kind. Today I am making new connections, based on that empowering statement. Connections which reach out to my family, and to those whose lives I will touch as I fulfill my Definite Major Purpose in life. Because…
I AM whole,
I AM perfect,
I AM strong,
I AM powerful,
I AM loving,
I AM harmonious, and
I AM happy.