All of our seven children are generous with anything they have. They had very little when they were growing up, but that never made them stingy with their money or resources when they did start earning. If they have it, they share. If they don’t have it, they share anyway.
“I promise I will give something to every person I encounter… without expectation of reciprocity.” ~ from the Law of Giving and Receiving
My son Andrew is only 23, but he understands this. When he heard my mom was in the hospital two months ago, he said, “You are going to Ontario to see Grandma. I have the money for two plane tickets. Who do you want to go with you?”
When you have seven children, and you live more than two thousand miles across the country from your mom, you don’t expect to get back home to see her often. I hadn’t seen my mom in almost ten years. I didn’t expect to see her now.
Thanks to Andrew, my youngest daughter, youngest son and I flew across Canada to see my mom for a few short days in October. It was the greatest treasure my son will ever give me, for I will never have the opportunity again. My mom passed away this past Sunday.
Me with my children in 2005
So how does an MKMMA member keep up with the daily requirements at such a time as this? Grief, pain, confusion, and a yearning to be with my family are all interwoven into the tapestry that make up my days. I could not fly back for the funeral, but my week has been full of correspondence with many friends and my large extended family back home. I’m sure glad feelings are not the same as thoughts, and my mental diet is not totally washed out!
I will confess I have not kept up as well as I would have liked, this week. But what I am learning here is helping me through this difficult time.
“I welcome the darkness, for it shows me the stars… I endure sadness for it opens my soul.” ~ from Scroll II
I have seen strength in my younger sister that I didn’t know she had. I have found myself reaching out to one brother in a way I never would under normal circumstances. And I have begun to see just how much my mom meant to so many people over the 82 years of her life. She was an amazing woman And I have to smile as I see the truth of the adage, “some things never change” — she is remembered as “The Cat Lady” by many, because she loved cats so much that strays would show up on her doorstep, fully expecting her to feed them. Which she always did!
“I never allow my mind to be attracted to evil and despair, rather I uplift it with the knowledge and wisdom of [the Word of God].” ~ Scroll II
God’s Word says, “Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on Thee: because he trusteth in Thee.” (Isaiah 26:3) Sometimes it isn’t easy to relax, and trust in the Lord. But the more I do, the more peace I find in this situation that could have me in darkest despair. Grieving is a tricky thing. One never knows what is going to trigger an unexpected reaction, even long after the loved one has departed. It still happens now, almost five years after losing our son. I don’t expect the road to be smooth. But I know it will be a lot smoother because of these spiritual tools that are always with me no matter where I am or what I am going through.
I am whole, perfect, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious and happy!